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[24 Jun 2009|11:05pm] |
i feel like i should've done something.
but it just hurts too much to.
would've been her 47th birthday today.
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[20 Apr 2009|11:23pm] |
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i cant stop fucking crying.
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[29 Mar 2009|11:43pm] |
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when i was just a little girl
i asked my mother what would i be
would i be pretty? would i be rich?
here's what she said to me..
Que sera sera
whatever you'll be you'll be
the future's not our to see
que sera sera
what will be will be..
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[22 Feb 2009|03:22am] |
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i feel like i'm on top of the world right now :-)
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[18 Feb 2009|11:19pm] |
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too stressed
too busy
too tired
too anxious
too anxious
too anxious
too anxious
but then again so is everyone else.. so i feel like i'm just bitching and annoying the shit out of anyone if i say anything. "well everyone else is stressed too.. just suck it up. that's what i'm doing" ..well i'm sorry to be a bother. but i've dealt with stress before. i've dealt with stress the past 7 years of my life. so why is it this bad now? why am i having so much trouble handling it now? why dont i physically feel well? why is it getting to me? and what it is -- stress from school? idk what it is, but for the past few months, if anything bad or stressful happens, it feels like it's 10 times worse than the situation actually is. I cant help it, i really cant. and i feel like i'm going crazy.
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I just got a text from nick saying "happy early 4 month babe" and i didnt even realize what day it was :( i suck.
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i just deleted my Myspace.
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[18 Jan 2009|11:36pm] |
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there is a difference between who you are, and who you wish to be.. once you realize that and can accept who you really are, then is when you're on your way to being happy with yourself.
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[04 Jan 2009|03:47am] |
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Life goes on.. whether you're ready for it or not :|
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[25 Dec 2008|06:41pm] |
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:'(
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[19 Dec 2008|02:11am] |
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i am so terrified of this feeling.
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[04 Dec 2008|12:41am] |
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2nd birthday without her :'(
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[23 Nov 2008|10:58pm] |
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realizing that you've gone up 2 sizes and nothing fits you anymore it's a horrific feeling, being a girl and all -_-
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[03 Nov 2008|12:06am] |
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this isnt a personal attack to any democrats out there
but i am honestly scared for this country if obama becomes president. i dont understand how so many people cant see it. i really dont :( he's gonna fuck shit up so bad.. and i feel like most democrats out there are voting for him because 1) they "want change" 2) its the cool thing to do; no one wants to walk around with a fucking mccain shit, but obama shirts are hip and cool 3) he's a "good public speaker" .. yet everytime i've heard him speak or heard any other democrat speak on behalf of his political stance when it comes to health care, the economy, etc i hear all this bullshit come out of his mouth -- and i get so frustrated bc it boggles my mind how SO MANY PEOPLE can believe in such idealistic unrealistic crap. and whatever changes he wiLL accomplish will not be for the better, but for the worse.
whatever i'll stop because most people reading this probably disagree. but all i got left to say is.. i'm scared for the future of this country if he becomes president; not just now and within the next for years, but within the next 10 and 20 years.
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[11 Sep 2008|01:43am] |
September 10, 2008
Sagittarius (11/22-12/21)
Pretending that a problem will just go away some day isn't a solution -- it's only going to cause you more stress down the line. Just like removing a bandage, the faster you deal with it, the less pain you will feel. So if you need to discuss a sensitive issue with someone who's known to have a trigger temper, be direct, be honest and be prepared for questions. You can't avoid this conflict. All you can do is begin it on your terms, which is an advantage.
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[07 Sep 2008|10:17pm] |
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i want to move away.
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[07 Aug 2008|01:46am] |
Day n night.
I toss and turn, I keep stressin’ my mind, mind.
I look for peace, but see I don’t attain.
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[02 Aug 2008|04:13am] |
ugh ihy.
but not really.
i cant sleep :/
im so anxious.
i just want to
know what's going
to happenn..
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[22 Jul 2008|08:58pm] |
bad shit happens
to good people..
fuck the universe.
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[19 Jul 2008|01:45am] |
I HAVE HAD THE WORST FUCKING DAY!!
it's time like these..
times when after such a
horrible day & i'm feeling
depressed, sad, lonely
..that i really dont know
what to do; dont know who
to ask to come over; dont
know how to make it all
better. i dont even want to
drink or smoke, which used
to be my escape; but now im
just so lost and feel so
overwhelmed with emotion.
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[06 Jul 2008|01:12am] |
so it's really difficult
to carry on with life's
stress and fucking problems
when you're not happy in
the first place.. kinda
just makes everything that
much worse :(
also:
i feel everyone thinks they
have a reason to hate me or
talk shit about me.. for one
thing or another; so for the
record. i'm sorry if i ever
hurt you. and i'm sorry if
someone ever talked shit and
gave you the wrong impression
of me.. i'm not a bad person.
i'm really not.
*wow. i cant believe i feel
this unbelievably sad..
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[01 Jul 2008|03:55am] |
i effin love great start
and vagabond
:))
ohoh this movie was sickkk fyi:
Wanted
and last but certainly not least; this girl
RIGHT HERE IS THE CUTEST THING ON THE FACE OF
THE EARTH. ILY BOO ;D
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